left and leaving.

my city's still breathing but barely it's true
through buildings gone missing like teeth
the sidewalks are watching me think about you
sparkled with broken glass
i'm back with scars to show
back with the streets i know
will never take me anywhere but here

the stain in the carpet, this drink in my hand
the strangers whose faces i know
we meet here for our dress rehearsal to say
"i wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown
spring forward, fall back down
i'm trying not to wonder where you are

all this time lingers, undefined
someone choose who's left and who's leaving

memory will rust, erode into lists of all that you gave me
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest
the best parts of lonely
duct tape and soldered wires, new words for old desires
and every birthday card i threw away

i wait in 4/4 time
count yellow highway lines
that you're relying on to lead you home