our ending.

i talked to zachary for the last time on saturday night. we talked for about an hour. i had calmed down. i was being civil. i wasn't yelling unless he yelled at me. i tried to explain myself over and over again. i tried to explain to him that this wasn't about the girl. my anger has been building up over the past year. i've kept everything inside, and this is just what set me off. he didn't understand. he kept saying the same things.
"i didn't do anything wrong."
"i just didn't want to hurt you."
"you'll be calm in a few days, so let's talk then."
no. i told him no. zachary intentionally said some very hurtful things to me. it was after those comments that i realized i couldn't hang out with him ever again. i couldn't see him ever again. i didn't care about my stuff anymore. i told him that i was done. he didn't believe me. he still doesn't. he thinks this is just a "phase." i told him that i hope things work out with the girl and that she makes him happy. i also told him not to call me. ever. he said he's going to call and leave messages anyway. i don't care. i'll just erase them. he just thinks this whole thing is a joke. well, i'm not laughing... i'm crying.

how could he be so hurtful to someone he calls his best friend? how could he say those things to someone he says is important to him and who he supposedly cares about?

what did i do to deserve this?