my poor vag.

well, i have more fun gyno details for you. woohoo. i think i said this in my last post (i can't remember and i'm not going to go back and look) but i had to have blood work done last week at the doctors. the results came in and the doctor called yesterday. things were normal in my blood. good. then she said "you need to get a pelvic ultrasound." wait.. what? i thought things were ok. damnation. so i scheduled one for today. 11:00. boo. last night, i decided to call amanda and find out why my doctor would want me to have one. amanda said that the doctor just wants to make sure nothing is wrong. she's just taking extra precautions. sigh. well, what could be wrong? amanda went on to inform me that it could be cancer, a tumor or cyst, a bad pregnancy, or me just not being able to have kids. wonderful. at that point, i got scared. i was really really scared. i just started crying. what if i had cancer or a tumor or something? what if i couldn't have kids? that would kill me. yes, i worry too much, but i was scared. i feel kind of bad for zach because he had to deal with me (i called him back after amanda). ha. but he talked me through it, made me see things rationally. he just made me feel better. so, i woke up, took a shower, and got ready. i had to drink a lot of water before i went and i couldn't pee either. it sucked. i had to strip down and wear one of those stupid smock things. i felt dumb. we went into the ultrasound room. i got on the table. first, she did the external ultrasound. she looked at my ovaries and kidneys and other things like that. while she was doing it, she was making weird faces and i got really nervous. when it was finished, i got to pee. woot. when i got back in the room, she informed me that she would be doing an internal ultrasound. oh, fantastic. she pulled out this HUGE probe and inserted it into my vag. it didn't really hurt, but it was awkward. she shoved it all the way up into my frickin uterus. i felt violated. afterwards, she took the pictures to the doctor. after the doctor looked at them, the nurse came back and said the doctor didn't see anything to be worried about. i was relieved. i won't get the final results until next week, but i'm happy. i feel violated... but i'm happy. my poor vag has had things shoved up it too much the past week. stupid doctors!

like my mother said... welcome to womanhood. bleh.